Wednesday, May 22, 2013
All of the Labels I Have Worn; Poor, Uneducated White Trash?
POOR
I had kids before college, and never could make it work. I am a two time high school dropout that they finally graduated just to get rid of, and a beauty school drop out as well. One kid, two kid, three kid, and minimum wage doesn't even pay daycare. I've had to do without a lot of material things over the past twenty years or so.
It was my choice.
UNEMPLOYED
In the last 18 years I have worked at three different local restaurants, Taco Bell, Wendy's, Wal-Mart, Salvation Army, landscaping, housekeeping, I ran a flea market booth, cleaned a salon, I was a manger at Quickfindit.com a dotcom gone dotbomb, I was a security guard, worked in a daycare, and have run two different store fronts one for five years and the last for a year.
I have never been fired from a single job.
UNEDUCATED
Formally I took a year and a half of architectural drafting, six weeks of beauty school, I have a nail technology degree without the license and I am a Colorado trained and certified Domestic violence and Sexual Assault Victim's Advocate. I maintain a web presence at Squidoo, and on five different personal sites dedicated to niches.
Informally I taught myself web design, graphics, marketing, bookkeeping, and of course... writing. I've volunteered a lot too.
LAZY
All I have ever wanted to be was a writer, but everybody pushed me towards the traditional paths. I tried and I tried but I didn't fit inside of the box they had chosen for me. I didn't fit into any one box at all. Different sizes, different shapes, new vantage points, and experiences to absorb. I have never ever stopped learning, stopped experiencing, stopped living.
WORTHLESS
After I got sick the doctors told me that I would never work again. I kept thinking about applying for disability, but in my mind that was giving up. That was giving in to circumstances. It was a box. So instead I applied for a Job Retraining Program. I told them that I wanted to be a writer from day one, but they said they didn't fund writers. They did fund video game designers though, so I took it. I built and sold avatars in Second Life for many years alongside my beloved hubby.
NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH
As Second Life went downhill my writing finally picked up. Squidoo brought me out into the world and I have been doing little else for the past four years. I wake up, I write, I sleep. I try very hard to earn everything I take from this world. I didn't have a choice when it came to going on public assistance, but I never stopped trying to get off of it.
ENTITLED
I'm not on any public assistance anymore, we finally reached a steady income and no longer qualify. My teeth are rotting out of my head, I can't afford prescriptions, my furnace went out, my car barely runs, and every single day something else breaks. It's sink or swim these days, but we are swimming towards something...
WHITE TRASH
Yeah, there are a lot of labels in this world but they don't really mean much underneath. I was sick and tired of all of those labels but there they are. I have done everything I could to prove to others that they weren't true, but they still keep sticking them on me anyhow.
They think they are labeling me for my own good, but those labels are purely for them.
MISERABLE
I'm doing the best I can to rip every single one of those labels wide open right now, but some people still only see what they always wanted to see. A failure.
I suppose only time will tell which of us is right. I'm not too worried though. I have no reason to be ashamed of a single one of those labels.
Besides I am too busy trying to add a new label...
HAPPY LIFE
Labels:
adding new labels,
entitled,
entitlement,
happy life,
labeling,
low income,
poor,
welfare mom,
white trash
Labels
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- accepting the things that we cannot change (2)
- acting like adults (1)
- adding new labels (1)
- ADHD (1)
- after the divorce (1)
- alternative discipline (1)
- anniversary (2)
- awesome step-dad (1)
- being a mommy (6)
- being poor (2)
- Bella (1)
- big girl (1)
- birthday thoughts (1)
- blah (1)
- breaking down tasks (2)
- bringing kids to work (1)
- brooke (2)
- career mode (1)
- celtic handfasting (1)
- change (3)
- children (4)
- church people (1)
- constitution (1)
- coparenting (4)
- custody exchanges (1)
- daddies (1)
- discipline (1)
- divorce (1)
- don't call me mom anymore (1)
- don't know (2)
- dream car (1)
- dressing goth (1)
- driving (1)
- dumb burglar ideas (1)
- eating healthy (1)
- edward cullen (1)
- embarassing moments (1)
- end of summer (1)
- entitled (1)
- entitlement (1)
- fairly goth mother (4)
- families with secrets (1)
- family (1)
- family business (1)
- family communication (1)
- family time (1)
- farting (1)
- fathers (1)
- feeling overwhelmed (3)
- finding themselves (1)
- first car (1)
- first job (1)
- flatulence (1)
- freedom (1)
- freshman year (1)
- gas (1)
- ged test (1)
- get over it (2)
- getting caught in the bedroom (1)
- getting close to others (1)
- getting divorced for the kids (1)
- getting kids through school (1)
- gluten allergy (1)
- gluten free (1)
- goal accomplished (1)
- Going away to school (1)
- golden rule (1)
- goth parents (1)
- growing up (1)
- growing up fast (4)
- habits (1)
- happiest moments (1)
- happy anniversary (1)
- happy fathers day (2)
- happy life (1)
- healthy relationships (2)
- his mine and ours (1)
- hormone hell (1)
- how many kids this week (1)
- husbands (1)
- i am not entitled to a damn thing (2)
- I love my husband (2)
- i love you daddy (1)
- it's not about you (1)
- Justin (1)
- karma (2)
- kicking the birdies out of the nest (1)
- kids (3)
- kids all home (1)
- kids and divorce (1)
- kids are washable (1)
- kids need to be kids (2)
- kids owe you (1)
- kids writing on themselves (1)
- labeling (3)
- labels (1)
- learning business skills (1)
- learning to fly (1)
- letter to my child (1)
- low income (1)
- making a man out of him (1)
- Making good decisions (1)
- manual labor (1)
- meaning what you say (1)
- menopause (1)
- miss you when youre gone (1)
- molestation (2)
- mom (1)
- mommy mode (1)
- mommy rule (1)
- motivating kids (1)
- my brookie (1)
- name calling (2)
- next time we are eloping (1)
- nicknames (1)
- no graduation (1)
- no means no (1)
- not licked yet (1)
- onward and upward (1)
- other peoples children (1)
- parental guidance (6)
- parenting (3)
- parenting philosophies (5)
- parenting teens (1)
- parents (2)
- parents letting go (4)
- parents of goth kids (2)
- politics (1)
- poor (1)
- poor me parent (2)
- population update (1)
- positive reinforcement (3)
- procrastination (1)
- protecting your child (2)
- proud mom (1)
- quitting smoking (1)
- raising daughters (3)
- raising sons (3)
- raising strong children (1)
- registered sex offenders (3)
- religious people and goths (1)
- remain unbroken (1)
- RESPECT (2)
- responsibile parenting (6)
- returning home (1)
- road trip (1)
- saying good-bye (1)
- saying no (1)
- saying what you mean (1)
- screaming (1)
- screaming mimi (1)
- self-acceptance (2)
- setting a good example (5)
- sexual predators (2)
- should kids backtalk (1)
- silly people (1)
- sixteen year old sons (1)
- son going to work with dad (1)
- spreading rumors (1)
- stay at home (1)
- step-parenting (1)
- stopping arguments (2)
- strange parenting philosophies (8)
- strange parents (2)
- stupid parent tricks (1)
- suck it (1)
- talking to kids about sex (1)
- teaching kids to work (1)
- teaching our children acceptance (1)
- teaching responsibility (1)
- teaching teens to make good decisions (1)
- teaching work ethics (1)
- teamwork (1)
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- teens and depression (1)
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- ten years (1)
- thank you dads (1)
- the 4th (1)
- the ground he walks on (1)
- to save relationships (1)
- trust (1)
- twilight (1)
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- virginity (1)
- visitation (1)
- Volkswagen bus (1)
- we appreciate you (1)
- welfare mom (1)
- what is backtalking (1)
- white trash (2)
- why kids argue (1)
- why kids talk back (1)
- work at home (1)
- work ethics (1)
- working with mom (1)
- yelling (1)
- youngest child (1)
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